I told God, "I don't trust you..."
"When I joined the church, God was someone who got pissed at me when I did something wrong. He was annoyed, petty, mad... because that's the dad I knew. I suffered every kind of abuse. Every single one. At one moment my dad would say 'I love you and I would do anything for you.' But then he would beat my ass an hour later. I didn't trust God even years after leaving home, until recently. I read the book Let God Love You and my therapist told me to just be me when I pray. I told God, 'I don't trust you. But I want to.'"