Hey, you're going to get a body...

“After my first miscarriage, I was doing OK and thought, ‘Well, it happens to 25% of people. So it is what it is.’ But I think that my faith really started crumbling after I had my second miscarriage (and I’ve had five total). It was crushing. I felt like my spirit was shattered, and the church did not help at all—the doctrine, the things I was hearing from bishops and therapists was backwards to me. One thing that I kept hearing from people was that God gives us trials to help us grow. For me, that made everything start to fall apart. We’re taught that there’s a pre-earth life and everybody was sent down to be given a body, and to learn, and to be given trials so that we can become closer to Heavenly Father and Jesus. And I just thought, that can’t be true, because this was the second time Heavenly Father teased a baby with a body. Like he was saying, ‘Hey, you’re going to get a body. But just kidding, because your mom needs to learn a lesson.’ That didn’t make sense to me with what I’d been taught.”